Yet another thing is now firmly implanted in the list.
After seeing the specialist today, he has confirmed my doctor’s diagnosis of Fibromyalgia. Yay.
Yes, it sucks to now know I have yet another thing that won’t go away, to live with for the rest of my life. I could dwell on that negative, and I am sure there will be days that I will. But hey, the upside is that I now know what is behind the constant fatigue and all over pain.
It’s a funny thing when you get diagnosed with something that has everyday, long term consequences. I remember the relief at finally knowing why I was all over the show, and had 2 previous nervous breakdowns, when I was diagnosed with Manic Depression. I know that sounds funny, relief finding out you have this horrible thing. But, I don’t see it that way. My manic depression makes me who I am, the good and the bad. I am creative, in more than one creative field, because of my manic depression. I see that as a huge plus. And i believe that by taking ownership of it means you aren’t fighting it, but working with it. I think if you fight it, it just makes things worse, because it is something you will never win the argument with if you decide to argue with it.
I also remember when I found out about the crushed vertebra in my back, and the issues it had created. It was a relief to know what was causing all that pain and discomfort. Yet again, it is something that won’t get better, it will in fact get worse over time, but at least I know what it is. You have to find the positives in a bad situation, otherwise you would just curl up and give up.
So today’s appointment had a few little surprises. One which I don’t know exactly how to take right now. The specialist did a reflex test, my right side was very good, with fast reflexes, but my left side was somewhat slower. I mean, I immediately noticed it. He didn’t seem to be overly concerned about it, saying it is a symptom that is sometimes present with Fibromyalgia. Anyhow, we will see what happens. He wants me to ramp up my exercise, from 30 minutes walking a day, to 45 minutes, and to start doing some weights, with hand weights and leg weights of about 3kg. He doesn’t think heavier would be good at this stage, so I guess I will have to be on the lookout for some now. I also told him I had been looking into some Tai Chi at our local health service, and getting out on my bike, and he thought that would be a great idea. It won’t make it go away, but it should help with dealing with it, easing the symptoms a bit.
Life wasn’t meant to be easy, but it would be nice to get a break soon !!!
Anyhow, that will be it for now, rest easy.